Dairies of His and Hers! (1)


Xoxoxoxoxo. .


She blinked once and then twice and  realised she had slept off with dried tears.
She vaguely rememberd how the evening had turned out …
from beautiful to bitterswit feeling.

One minute she was having the  time  of her life ,the next she was sniffing, head in hands abd pourin her heart out.
She dragged herself lazily out of bed..strolled to take a shower, soaked herslf in d bath and scrubbed
..like she was removing filth from her body..not like there was anything
..Maybe even trying to convince herself that by doin it..it wld help.

She Got out from the shower, dressed up. Stood infront of mirror…and looked at herslf.

She was pretty enough.. some people might even call her beautiful.
She wondered why  she let herslf be treated this way.

So she made a decision..
for the hundredth time..
Knowing for once in her life, that  for real this time it would  stick.

She said….”its enough!!!!”

She had made mistakes..she wasnt lucky..she had scars..scars that would take forever to heal

..scars left for everyone to see.

” they can do what they will,
–  laugh, mock her, say things about her..but they cant break her.
Its enough!!!!”

” they can play their games. Break her heart..treat her like dirt..
but now its enough!!”

“They can hold her tonight but by the  mornin light they choose not to give a secnd’s thought  of her..
all that is gone
All feelings are gone now…its enough!!!”

What matters is how she makes her path here on out.
She believes in her fairytale ending.
She knows that miracles do happen, and that one day she was going to meet that one that when she sees that smile that it would melt her heart..

Those  eyes that would see just her..and those words that would make her feel like the only girl in the  world and those arms…
His arms that would  keep her safe and secure and then the featherlight kiss to her forehead that means respect and that would  put her to sleep.
She will wait.
She would hold on to her dreams..

She knows its time to let go of past hurts.. To not hold on to people that don’t  give or even care to hold on back..using excuses, complications or what ever they have got going these days to put her in her place.

” Its enough!!”

.she says out loud…

“its enough!!!!
Ama do good all by myself”

She wipes the tears that treked down her pretty face, flared nose and swollen lips

..dupped a lil makup on so no one knows she has been crying.
Hoping it hides the scars and broken pieces she didn’t want everyone to see.

Steps out into the mornin breeze,
She took a deep breath…closing her eyes, allowing the breeze course through  her hair, kissing her chicks..
Dancing lightly brushing her skin…and she lets out the bent-up emotions in a ragin breath and takes in refreshed ones..

for the first timein her life.
she knew she was gonna survive .
And she finally did realise…
You can only be broken temporarily. ..
But you can’t be put down permanently. ..
She was like a phoenix .rising from the ashes..
And she was a lot stronger now than she ever gave herself credit for.

She smiled her sweet smile..and said again.

‘its enough! And I am  going to be ok!’.

She walked off..forming anew path.
Forgetting the hurts of yesterday  ..
And looked forward to the joys of tomorrow   ….



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