Do you ever wish for something so bad that even in your dream you would be laughing so hard because you know that shit ain’t going to happen because ..
Well, it doesn’t just happen.
Like when you watched that cinderella story;(there are different variations of it but I am talking about one in particular) the evil step sisters who I personally call the diabolical twins with their horrible horrible mother, the fairy god-mother and her magic wands, the gold slippers and my personal favourite, the Prince. I mean the movie with Drew Barrymore and that delicious looking prince of a man. #swoons
Didn’t you have all the happy goose feelings and all that jazz? Cos I did.
But my point is, it’s a lie. Things just don’t work out that way, well at least not in real life . Here, miracles don’t just happen. Nothing does.
So little poor me wishing that one day, one beautiful sunny day, Jayden, my crush from my young dreams to my adult fantasies would come looking for me and tell me he was sorry for making me feel uglier than I am, make everyone apologise to me and maybe hold my hands and walk me back and forth from home to school would one day be a reality was as far fetched as seeing santa claus dancing rumba with the fat lady out in Antarctica.
Not possible right? Exactly.
So for a while I gave up on that notion. Tossed it away together with my self worth, in a big black duffel bag, out into the sea. I didn’t care. I mean everyone hated me, every one stared at me so HeY!#I shrugged. Why don’t you just live life the way you ought to.
So I ate, laughed like a pig, didn’t bother about my looks much and I read and went to school. I didn’t care.
After a few weeks I meet this boy, who seemed awfully shy, quiet and also loud at the same time. I couldn’t quite understand him. But strange thing happened, while everyone avoided me like a plague, he would sit with me. Pick up my fallen pen, laugh at my silly jokes and called me cyn.
And as weirdly as he was, how friendship blossomed. And then instead of allowing me stuff chocolates and junks into my mouth he places me on a diet, runs miles with me and was just there..for me. As a friend, no strings, no conditions and days turned to weeks, weeks to month and months to years and we became inseparable.
When it was time, we went to the clinic, took out my braces and everything had been corrected. I looked into the mirror and realised that my scars had healed, my chubby cheeks had disappeared, my smile was brighter and my confidence strolled in back like a muda-fxxker on Benjamins and sticks.
“See cyn, whoever told you were ugly never saw you for who you are. With or without your braces and hideous look you hide under, there is beauty that could sparkle the world for ages to come. Look at you.. Now. What do you see?” Christoper asked me, standing behind me as I starred at the mirror
“I see a beautiful girl” I smile, touching my face, tears filling my eyes. The last time I bothered to look into a mirror was months ago. I covered it all up because looking at me made me feel worse.
“You know what I see? I see a girl who needed validation from people to make her feel good but she didn’t realise that she needed no one else but herself. I see a girl whose beauty isn’t about her looks but it’s in her heart. I see cyn, I see you and that’s all I see. Whoever thought you were ugly only looked at your surface, they never truly looked at your heart, that’s were true beauty lies” Christopher tells me, as he ruffles my hair, a smile reaching his eyes
That day,I knew that things had to change… It wasn’t Stella getting her groove back. It was me, Cynthia, getting all groove and A-game back and Boy I had just one thought.
I was coming back for Jayden to realize that, I was meant for him. I was coming back to show all of them just how wrong they were all about me, at HarBeth high. I was coming back to win back my prince, and I know that I was going to.
“What are you thinking about Cyn?” Christopher says
“Down to earth Cyn, down to earth” he snaps his fingers as I bolt out of my thoughts
I rub my palms together ,
“Nervous?” he asked, worry crossing his brows.
“Slightly, but partly because I have waited for this moment all my life and in a few minutes I would be right there in front of them, and I know I would love their epic expressions, especially Eva, but most importantly this has to be perfect, because this might be the foundation of me and jayden’s journey together you know?”
“Yeah. Yeah ” he says, squeezing my hands and smiling at me. I return the smile, my heart beating in my chest as we near the venue.
“Stop pacing up and down dude, you are making my eyes hurt ”
Tom tells him , the place was cramping with people, old classmates. There were laughter, cheering and hailing of one another, clicks of the camera, hugs and shrieks from the ladies, handshakes and back slapping from the dudes, music’s and booze, food and mingling. It was a happy moment for everyone meeting after such a long time and a lot of catching up was in progress
“She isn’t here, maybe she isn’t coming. She isn’t here Tom, damn!!” He paces , absent-mindedly answering a few people who came to hug them, smiling at their jokes while his eyes were glued to the entrance
“Let’s welcome, Brooke devlin, you remember how naughty she was back in school? But she was a damn good cheerleader. Give it up for her, looking all great as she makes her way”
There were cheering and clapping as everyone remembers her, she smiles waving, as she and her date disappears into the crowd
‘Relax dude, she would, she might, she would. Argh! I don’t know just take it easy and stop pacing. Everyone wants to meet you so smile slugger ”
Tom nudges him as a couple of people came to them and the chants began
“Oh Jayden, I swear you don’t look as though you aged a day. So handsome, still the popular kid in the block”
“Yeah, a prestigious lawyer I hear”
“Your pops rolling with the mayor’
“I hear you and Eva are still going strong ”
Jayden rolls his eyes and indulges them in a small chat, avoiding topics that had an “E” to it.
Somewhere in the crowd, Vera notices a huge board placed at the corner, she smiles going to it. It had pictures of everyone in their set at HarBeth high, back and front of it, every single one of them and their pictures signed in their year book, nicknames and given names from friends, worst names and all the sad and happy moment’s, she smiles seeing her tiny little face, with a huge glasses sitting on her nose..
‘Aww, hello little Vera, you did good for yourself. All your nerdiness paid off, we have a place of our own and soon we are going to be on everyone’s lips, and we look good. And guess what, our friend Cynthia came back and she looks great too ” she pouts
“I know you missed her little Vera, but it’s okay now. She came back ”
Vera smiles touching her picture, laughter at the back of the board made her turn to the other side. A group of people clustered around peering over their shoulders as they point and laugh at a picture, taking selfies of it too.
“Oh crap, you know I had forgotten all about this thing of a girl . Wow! How long as it been?” He pokes at the picture
“She was hideous, you know we signed a student’s petition to have the Dean expell her from the school but he wouldn’t allow it. Something about everyone had a right” she scoffs
“I wonder what ever happened to her. She never finished with us”
” Maybe She died. ” someone laughed
“Got hit by a bus or a train and her body was never found ” another said
“I heard she got pregnant and the baby was just as horrible as she was, so they sent them both away far far away and then she couldn’t bear the stigma and threw herself and her kid over the clif” a few of them gasped
“Nah, Too dramatic, I think after that day in school and she went mopping after jayden, he chased her out of his house because he couldn’t stand her and then told everyone how nasty she was and well, she was nasty and ugly and disgusting. I think she just left. ”
“Yeah it went around like wild fire. You remember those names calling and stickers on her locker?”
They all laughed.
“Glad she left..who ever told her she could roll with the rich kids and in our school, It was way better she left to oblivion or even died. Such grossque features she had.”
“It’s not overly nice to talk about someone that way. Didn’t your parents ever teach you never to think a condition is ever parmanent? ”
“It means that She is a person and she deserves to be treated as such” Vera stated firmly
“Hahaha. You mean we should just call her as she is due, ugly drooling duckling!! By the way why do you care, are you the book keeper of ugly people?” another round of laugher
“Funny and rude. Actually no, but I do know how to stand up for a friend and she does have a name, her name is cy-
“Oh don’t listen to her she is such a kill joy, let’s all go over there, the party is hitting up.” someone suggested and they ignore her leaving her to talk to herself.
“Oh Gosh, I wish I can make you all eat your words but soon. You would realise your mistake , Ugly duckling you say?” She scoffs
‘”We shall see !!”
‘Keep pacing and I swear I would tie you to the chair and feed you nuts from timbuktu” Tom eyes a pretty girl across the hall as he tells jayden from the side of his mouth
“The party is in full swing Bro, and she ain’t here. Maybe she ain’t coming. I don’t even see her friend around” he takes a swift look around, Tom follows his gaze,
“Well, maybe they didn’t come” he tells him, handing him a glass of wine from the waitress.
“Here, drink. You are the man of the moment, you are jayden the most sort after bachelor soon to be off the market, dont worry about the new girl..well old-new girl. Maybe she left town again already for good’” he teased
“Dude, don’t even joke, I should go take a look around ” he made to leave ignoring the wine
“Er nope you don’t. Stay here and look handsome and make me look good too. Smile., friends are coming towards us, say hi” he forces the wine into his hands
“Hi” Jayden forces another smile as he holds the glass and he indulge’s in small talk
“Good thing Godzilla didn’t show” Tom smiles at him as the last person leaves, Jayden nods, downing the contents and drops the glass
“Oh, I see her”
“Who?” Jayden turns hoping to see cynthia
“Godzilla-the-Eva!” He mutters
She walks in wearing a lovely pink dress, adorned in beautiful accessories and her smile was happy.
The music tones down as the MC, one of their old school class mates, takes her hand to introduce her.
“I present to you, Eva. She was the head of Harbeth’s cheerleading team, assistant students body president along side our favourite person this evening Jayden Michael, her father was friends with the Dean and he is an astute business man and of course tight friends with the mayor presently. She and Jayden became an item in their senior year ” everyone gushed nodding their head
“Oh yes we remember. Ladies and gentlemen, let’s welcome the beautiful Eva-
She tugs at his sleeve, as she whispers into his hears
“Erm..Jayden I think Eva is about to make history ‘Tom nudges him
“Oh God no!” He mutters as he sees the MC look at her in suprise, she nods showing her finger as her ring sparkled
“Oh how beautiful!! Eva and Jayden are engaged!! I present to you the soon-to-be Mrs Eva Michaels. Damn look at that ring, must have cost a fortune” he gushed, she puts it out for everyone to see as they flocked around her, hugging her and congratulating her, a few came to congratulate him, his face like granite and his fist was folded, she blew him thousands of kisses mouthing an..
“I love you baby!”
Jayden wasn’t smiling “am going to kill her” he gritted his teeth
“Dude calm down.’
“How dare her, I told her not to. I haven’t proposed to her and I won’t ever, How dare she pull this stunt on me. I don’t care if our parents are rooting for this; it won’t work and I am going up there to tell everyone as she just did, how we are no longer dating.Ha! How is that for a bomb!!” He wanted to hit something
‘Jayden! !congrats man. I knew you both belonged together ”
He nearly laughed in their faces
“Don’t make me laugh please ‘!
“Wow!!” Vera muttered , seeing the scene unfold ..
“Where the hell are you cynthia? ” she dailed her phone
“What?” Christopher stares at me, we were just right outside as the music blasted though the closed doors
“How do I look?” I asked for the upteenthed time, it was the sixth time I powdered my nose, brushed my hair, put on some extra lipstick and adjusted my beautiful dress looking at the small mirror in my bag and making sure even my lashes was in place
Christopher stares at me,
“You look beautiful ” he says.
“Am serious Chris, tell me. If I don’t look okay we are just going to get back into that car and head home. I need to look perfect, I need today to be perfect… I need them to see me looking perfect Chris. That or nothing else, jayden is behind that door and today , today has to be the start of something new Chris, so honestly look at me and tell me, how do I look?” I pleaded biting my lower lip.
We were not going in until I was rocking back my confidence.
He comes standing in front of me, staring at me for a full minute, a strand of my hair had fallen over my eyes, he raises his hands and tugs it behind my hair, something he liked to do I realised.
“Cynthia A.Morgan, I think it would be awfully degrading to describe you as just beautiful in your looks, and it would be wrong to say you are perfect but No one is, just God. But- ” he continues as my face began to turn the smile upside down
“But I would say this, you are beautiful when you smile and when it lights up your eyes, when you throw silly tantrums just because you want to get what you want and the sun had refused to rise. You are beautiful in your silly croaked laugh and when you jump up and down like a little frog when you are happy and excited about good things coming your way. When you show how selfless you are and when you pretend as though you don’t have a heart. You are beautiful in a dress as elegant as this and even when your only dress was your braces and just your name your glory. Cynthia, you are perfect because God made you in his image and likeness and your perfection is as a result of his doing not anyone else. Your beauty is beyond compare and I won’t narrow it down just for a dress for today. You glow as radiant as the sun rising in the horizon, nothing else comes close and if that is not enough validation for your Cyn, I don’t know what else. So smile, your heart would take care of the rest” he brushes my cheeks slightly with his thumb
Why did his words feel..Feel..so warm?
‘Thank you Chris ” I smile up at him
‘For what,” he drops his hands, stepping back as though something was wrong, looking away
“For being my friend, for sticking around, for being here”
“What are friends for right? ”
“Yeah, what are friends for !” I concur
“Shall we?” He gives me his hands, I link mine with his “let’s go dazzle them”
“Chris, I hope you -remember you are my cousin from outer-”
“Yeah yeah, I know. Maybe I can add your lost long twin from mars” he teased and I laugh, raising my head up, squaring my shoulders and putting on my breathtaking smile, walking elegantly as the door began to open to let us in.
“Am way cuter than you.” I enthused
“You wish”!’ He replies with a smile
“Hey jayden, you really want to make a scene here and now?”
“She is going to ruin my chances with Cynthia .” he hissed eyeing Eva as she flaunted the ring and buried herself with the crowd of people surrounding her
‘Don’t stop me, am going up there with her and we are going to offcially break it up. Let’s see how smily she would be then” he leaves him, walking towards the entrance
At that minute, the door opens up ushering two people in, he didn’t stop until his eyes rested on the lady, only then did he stop on his tracts, mesmerized.
So did everyone and the music.
Somewhere in the crowd, a lady was smiling , waiting, anticipating. Tom nearly choked on his drink and while everyone wondered who the beautiful lady was, jayden didn’t take his eyes off her
“Wow!!” The MC exclaims taking me all in as I stood waiting to him welcomed me in, Chris holds my hands as my escort.
“You look astonishing, and radiantly so. Damn!” He eclaims, running his eyes over me, I felt Chris tense and I wondered why
‘Thank you” I purr.
At this point, sounding sexy just went up a notch.
“Erm, am sorry this is a closed party but I think we won’t mind to have such an exquisite person in our midst, am sure your date won’t mind?”
“No of course not”
I hand him my card smiling “Harbeth High alumini ” I tell him
He looked confused , staring at my name and then at my face, “am sorry, you went here? I mean I have everyone that went here on my list and everyone has been ticked just one person but we don’t have a name like this on our list ” he flipped through his list of names
“By the way, you are way to beautiful for me to forget a face.” he states winking at me
Oh really. I thought
“Is that so?”
He nods with all surety.
“But like I said, forget the card, you can go in, it would be horrible to let you go because it’s a closed party . I mean, who made that rule even?” He laughs checking me out, Chris clears his throat.
All eyes on me.
“What’s the last name on your list” I enquire
“Nobody important” everyone laughs, muttering and nodding
‘Pray, tell” I enquire
“Some ugly duckling .” another bust of laughter
“What’s her name?” I push, my smile not leaving my face
“A girl has no name” someone shouted
Too much Game of Thrones. I smirk
“Ugly duckling! ”
“Drooling ugly duckling was her name?”
“Too bad,” I mutter, smiling.
“What if I tell you a little three-word-story?
“Ouuuhh. .what might that be?” He asked me
“I am her!” I state
“Who?”” A nervous laugh
“Go girl” Vera mouthed from the crowd giving me a thumbs up, I smile as I saw her walking up to me
“The same girl you all hated on and called hideous . The same girl you all called ugly, beastly, drooling baby pig and made fun off. The same girl in that picture a few of you were just laughing at. The same girl who left because of your silly taunts all children without proper upbringing can enjoy and throw shades at. The same girl you all thought would not amount to anyone. She is her” she says , pointing to the last person on his list and then points to me
“She is her, same girl and she is back in town. And just because you all were all too silly to know her name, let me introduce you to her. This delicious looking drop-dead-georgeous with a beauty that makes you all look like child’s play, I mean that literally puts your best look here to shame, let me reveal a once upon a long-long time ago ugly duckling who has transformed into a real life princess and nope she didn’t need no plastic surgery, she just had to lift all your bulshits away from her shoulders and bam!! She is rocking. In your face Harbeth high!!” Vera finishes, happy. Content. Satisfied
I should give Vera an award for being awesome right?
She was awesome. I wouldn’t have said it better
“Why aren’t you all talking. No more laughter? No more taunts? Did you all just swallow it all?.Damn!! Never realized how good mannered you all can be all of a sudden”
*I felt like hugging her I swear*
‘Oh my God!! You are serious?” A girl says
“I can’t believe this.. it can’t be her?” Some dude shakes his head
“She is beautiful. Look at her”
“She is ..wow!”
I smile, the MC shakes is head in bewildement
‘Your picture got nothing on you ” he confesses whistling
“I have seen her before?,”
Eva opens her eyes as it dawns on her “it was you from the boutique. !!” Eva comes forward, not pleased
“Look , you may have changed your looks but you are still ugly from the inside. Almost ruining my shopping. You would still remain ugly duckling to us, We don’t care!” She folded her arms “right?”
She waited for a unified chorus answer but no one answers her. Jayden gets booted from his trance and turns to face her wondering who dragged the party crasher to the party.
“What, did I say anything wrong? Come on baby won’t you back me up on this. I mean, who cares about her right?”
“Why don’t you introduce her Mc” Vera cuts in, ignoring the whinning oversized baby in pink
“Gladly.” He says
” ladies and gentle men, allow me introduce the high of this evening , she is beauty redefined, georgeous and amazingly radiant in her simplicity, one of our own back to us. Allow me welcome ” he looks at my card for my name
“Cynthia Abigail Morgan” jayden steps up, staring into my eyes
Eva gasped, Tom laughs, Vera let’s out a silent “Ye ” and I smile praying the butterflies doesn’t leap from my mouth tummy out of my mouth
OMG Jayden! !!
“Cynthia Abigail Morgan! ” The MC concurs as everyone begins to clap and cheer me on, whistling and chanting “Cynthia
Did I want to die of happiness? Yes. Did I want to scream at the top of my voice? Yes. Did I feel as though I was flying and on top of the world? Yes.
Did my dream just come true? Hell yeah!!
“May I escort you from here on out?” He asked me, standing so close, looking at just me, giving me his hand “if your date don’t mind?”
I look at Chris, he let’s go giving me a smile, stepping away from me to the side. I nod, as I link my hands to Jayden’s as he walked me through the crowd, everyone wanted to hug me, take a picture with me, ask me about my life, catch up. Everything. And a few apologies too.
I mean Everything.
“Jayden? Jayden Michael, let her be and come to me now. I forbid you to go around with her ,..that ..that…–
“Put a sock in the socket Godzilla, A new chick is in town and she got more class and is way hotter than you?” Tom mutters behind her
“What?” She turns , Tom slides into the crowd and disappears laughing. He needed to go find the pretty girl at the corner earlier anyways
Music was back on, laughter, dance, merry go round
“Hey you, wanna be my plus one today?” Vera touches his arm ,
“Oh I would be honoured” he places his hands to his chest, taking her hand he walks into the hall leading into a dance
“Can we go outside and talk?” He wispers into my ears, I felt tingly all over
“You do look really beautiful today, and every other day since I met you”
“Do I? ”
“Yes. I don’t mean to prey but, who was he, your escort? Anyone important?”
“My cousin from outer state. Here for the holidays” I lied while be nodded.
“Anybody, I mean man, important in your life?” I smile nodding, he frownwd
“My dad!” I laugh at him
“No one else?” I look at him. Curious why he was asking
Christopher too. He is my friend. He is important
“At the moment, just you. ”
“Liar! Eva..that’s her name right. You both-?
He shakes his head “Not anymore. It was complicated at first but..not anymore”
“Because Cynthia”he leans in
“Because something has been missing from my life, and I think I have just found it.”
“What?” I whispered. He had leaned so close, so very close, I thought he could hear my heart beating really fast, or see me jumping from my mind’s eyes.
I never imagined him so near me, speaking words I couldn’t understand yet understand
“What?” I ask again, he hands touches my cheeks, he takes a strand of my hair and rolls it with his finger
“Something that I have been looking for my entire life” he breathed, his breath kissing my lips
Kiss Me already. I pleaded with my eyes
“I swear Cynthia, all I want to do is kiss you and I have never felt this silly in a long time. ”
And I have felt this way all my life… Go figure huh?
“Jayden Michael, what the hell are you doing?” Eva shrieks breaking us apart
“Stalking me now Eva?” We straighten
“Stalking? I am protecting what’s mine” she walks up to us, eying me
“Look Tintijia or let’s just go with ugly still, Jayden is my man. “Look” she shows me her ring.. I blink in shock, taken aback
“Whatever! he didn’t tell you? We are engaged and we just made the announcement. So he is taken, you can keep your claws off him else amma have to fix my fingers on your plastic face:” she fumed
“Am sorry I didn’t know” I honestly tell her getting up, moving away
“No wait, that’s not true.” he holds my hands
“Let her go jayden ”
“No!! Look cynthia all this is an misunderstanding ”
“Oh? ” I mutter.
Yes I wanted Jayden but I won’t be the reason he breaks off his engagement.
“Never mind it. Am sorry Eva, congratulations. Jayden -.
My heart broke. Maybe I should give up. It’s over,
“No. !! Eva all you have been is a spoilt brat who likes to get things done her way and yes we dated but it’s over, way before today so am doing this for me”.
“This”! He heads away from us, going back into the hall, picking up the mic
“What are you doing?.” Tom comes up infront of him
“What I always wanted to ..” he says..
“Hi everyone, just to clear up something”
I and Eva come inside, everyone turns to him
“Baby, Jayden don’t.” she pleaded, he ignores her
“I and Eva aren’t engaged, I never proposed. Heck I never even got her that ring nor went on one knee, It’s a lie and right now we are officially done. It’s over. Thank you! ”
“That’s not true.. you- you love me” she firmly states
“No Eva, no. Honestly no .. am done ”
“Wow” Christopher mutters from where he sat; shaking his head
“Yeah. Wow!” Vera joins in
A tiny sob escapes from her lips, then she runs out sobbing. The hall was quiet for a minute, then music comes back up and everyone goes back to a party mode as though nothing ever happened
“I didn’t like her anyways” someone mutters
“Me neither. Too fake”
A group of people laugh
“Way to go Bro, I am proud of you son. Ended it like a boss” Tom slaps his shoulders, but he was staring at me
Did I feel bad for her? Yes
What she did was wrong but, I felt bad for her and Jayden was walking towards me
“You wanna get out of here!!? He asked when he was infront of me.
He just broke up with his girlfriend. No.
“Yes!” I mutter
“You sure you are going to be okay?” Vera asked me as I came to tell her I was leaving with jayden. I nod.
“And you?” I ask her
“I would take her home” Chris mutters.
I almost forgot about Chris.
“Call me, if anything just call me” he gives me a half smile as I nod and leave with Jayden .
Vera watches Chris watch me leave
“Did you ever tell her? ”
“Tell her what?” He picks his jacket, opening the door for her as she enters the car
“How you feel?” She peers into his face, instead of answering he gave her a sad smile.
“No point to. She got her prince and I am just the pauper.” he states and that was the last he said
We sat on top of his car and talked, laughed joked and I felt closer to him than I have ever felt. .
Finally, the start Of something new had begun. It was past midnight before he dropped me home
“Dinner tomorrow? ” he ask’s and I didn’t waste time nodding.
“Good ” he said closing in for a kiss
I really really wanted to kiss him but, I didn’t want to wake up and realise this was all a dream
“No… not today ” I struggled
“Because today you were someone’s else’s, by tomorrow if you are still here then I would think about it ”
He smiles, kissing my knuckles instead
“Okay. See you tomorrow princess ”
The butterflies in my tummy were flying, I wondered if I was still walking on my own two feets. My prince
“See you tomorrow jayden” I gushed, leaving the car so I don’t get tempted to bury my face in his warmth
Jayden watches her leave, smiling.
He felt empty letting her go, incomplete as though a part of him went away with her. Was this what love was, was he in love with a girl he once didn’t like and now all he wanted was just to be near her. He liked the feeling, he liked it very much.
I snucked into my room, and found Chris awake,
“What are you still doing up? ” I go into the bathroom, with my pj, took a quickshower and change.
“Waiting up for you?”
I blush coming out, I wanted to tell him all about all we talked about, how he wanted to kiss me and how I wanted to kiss him right back. About our date tomorrow and how happy I was feeling and I did, blurt it all out, blushing like a little girl .
“Are you happy ” he asked. I nodded, jumping
“Yes yes I am. Finally, Jayden sees me Chris, he sees me and he aint ashamed of wanting me. Oh how long I have wanted for this moment I can’t even close my eyes to sleep because. ..oh gosh!!” I laid on the bed
‘That’s all that matters ”
“Christopher we are going out tomorrow and I know it’s going to continue, can you just go hang with Vera please so my parents don’t suspect and start asking questions why I leave you at home? Once we get serious I would introduce him to my parents and we can tell them the truth or rather I can say we broke up and I met jayden ”
“Sure, why not” he says, turning to his side
“why don’t you get some sleep Cyn, it’s late. Goodnight”
“Okay Chris , goodnight ” I turn to my side of the bed, closed my eyes and had a dream of Jayden and our kiss which was bound to happen.
It’s been two weeks, of bliss for Jayden and I and he was a perfect gentleman, treating me right, saying all the right things and not pushing me for anything.
And I have just been postponing my kissing him because I wanted it to be perfect. Today’s was Christmas eve, I wanted to kiss him under the mistletoe door mum would be dangling tomorrow.
Vera and Christopher covered for me. I and Chris go out and they drop me at Jayden’s and they go hang while I spend time with him and mother and papa never noticed.
At home we pretend like the perfect couple and I made sure mother never pulled another stunt of me kissing Chris again, I was saving my lips for my jayden
See, my Jayden.
“Christopher darlyn, I got you a nice coat for Christmas tomorrow, you would love it” mother tells him
“And I got you a watch, customised with your name to it. Don’t ever take it off ” papa says, excited
“And I won’t tell you both what I got for you, you just have to wait and see” he smiles mischievously
“Smart kid” papa says but he just laughs
“And cynthia, what did you get for her?” Vera askes
He stares at me “it’s a surprise” he says, I give him a warm smile, I was thinking about the gift I had wrapped up for Jayden in my room, I couldn’t wait to go by and drop it by his Christmas tree and open it tomorrow.
They were talking
“What did you get for Christopher?” mother repeated
I forgot all about Chris. I picked a gift for everyone and forget about him
“Something really nice” I lied.
When we were alone, I would tell him
“I think we would have to tell them tonight ”
Something in his voice made me look up
“Chris… what’s wrong? ” I turn to him
“Nothing Cynthia. I am glad you found the love you have always wanted and I pray he loves you immensely as you love him and if he as much as hurt you, I would make sure he regrets it” he says as he touches my face
“Thank you for everything” I tell him truthfully
“I booked my flight for tomorrow, back to Canada ”
“Work cyn” he lied. He still had two more weeks to go .
But he couldn’t stay anymore.
“But- Chris? I tugged at his sleeves.
Why did I feel slightly bumped
“Cyn, you don’t need me anymore, you can take it from here. Tell your parents thank you for me when I leave, they are really a lovely couple and I really honestly enjoyed spending time with them this past couple of days. I loved spending time with you too and knowing your family and meeting Vera and all the drama, it was great. It was fun, and now I am glad that at least I was an instrument to making you happy. But you don’t need me anymore, and I don’t want it to be awkward for you when you break the news to them.
There was logic in what he was saying but.. I wish he didn’t have to leave. He was my friend and I cared enough. I sighed. I pull him into a hug
He hugged me tight, a bit too tight. Yes I was sure now that he smelled my hair, I laugh
“Why do you smell my hair?”
He chuckles “habit. You are short so that’s what always gets to my noise first. ”
I hit him
“It smells nice, and I like tugging them behind your hair when a strand leaves its pack”
Yeah I noticed
He pulls me away slightly and looks into my face
“Promise me you would take care of you Cyn my little trouble monster” he implored looking into my eyes
Why did my legs go suddenly weak?
“I-I promise” I stuttered
Why did I feel as though he was staring into my soul?
He didn’t let go of my face, he smiles before he places a kiss to my forehead, lingering he kisses my cheeks, and I felt warm again
He pulls away, walking away from me, my throat closed. I swallowed
Chris hasn’t ever shown any emotion towards me before, so it seemed strange to see him that way.
Maybe because he was leaving.
“Cynthia?” Vera calls my name, I turn away following her outside to set the table for dinner
“What’s wrong son… you seemed too quiet. You okay?” Jacob handed him a beer and sat beside him
“How did you know she was the right one for you?”
“I didn’t. I just knew loving her felt right and that no one ever made me feel the way she did. And I knew forever with her was not non-negotiable. She was my Juliet and I was her Romeo so I closed my eyes and jumped. Never regretted it” he said
“You really love my daughter don’t you? Chris shakes his head
“Right from the moment she walked through those doors with her braces and awkwardness, from her silly annoying tantrums to her froggy jumps, to her cartoonist behaviours and little girlie moments. From her overbearing nature to that sweet girl that she is. She has always been special to me. I have never really realised how much till today.” he says
“Then why do you look sad son? It’s a good thing to realise your love for someone this much and having someone to love you back is equally amazing. I am glad my daughter found her prince.” He say
Yes, she found her prince.
Jayden. The pauper goes home to Canada he thought
“Yes, me too.”
A smile not quite reaching his eyes. He would leave tonight so he doesn’t get to see them in the morning.
“You look happy” Tom tells him, he had hardly seen Jayden for the past couple of days
“I am Tom I am, she is amazing in all ramifications. ”
“Hmm. Eva hasn’t stopped stressing me to get you back to her. She says she is willing to change and all”
“Eva is old news. My Cynthia is all I think about. She is beautiful, intelligent and did I mention awesome?”
He laughs picking out a suit
“That’s for meeting the parent’s suit? Tom teases
“Yep. I have to look nice. She introduces me to her parents tomorrow. ”
“Banged her yet?” He dodged the pillow Jayden threw at him
“Cynthia isn’t like that. We haven’t even had our first kiss yet, but am looking forward to it and every other thing. She is amazing Tom I swear, she is the best thing that happened to me for a long while Tom. ”
“You should fall in love and see how it feels, I feel like flying”
“Who are you and what have you done to my friend Jayden?”
“Jayden has been reborn with the love of Cynthia and I feel fxxking-fantastic! !! I can’t wait for tomorrow. I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes man. It’s a new Dawn baby” He says smiling
Tom shakes his head laughing at Jayden
“Why not Chris?” Vera stands beside him as they watched them laugh from an inside joke
“Because, well because I am leaving tomorrow and she is happy. I won’t ruin it for my selfishness.”
“You love her Chris. At least tell her. She has a right to know, and you have a right to unburden yourself, are you going to go away without letting her know how you really feel about her?”
“Yes!!” He stares at her “and promise me you won’t either”
Vera shakes her head
“Hey Vera? Promise me?”
“Fine.” deep sigh
“Mother, papa. I have to tell you something …” I say rubbing my palms
“Where is Christopher?” mother askes
“Yes he was outside an hour ago” papa affirms
“Th-tats what I want to tell you about?”
“Tell us what?”
“I know you both are very fond of Chris but –
-but what? Where is he? Did he go out? Its late where would he have gone?”
“He is sleeping in a hotel tonight?”
“Why bunny, did something happen?” mother askes
“Did you both have a fight?” Papa looks at me
How do I tell them the truth without telling them the truth?
“Actually we were… Erm, we Broke up!!” I close my eyes and waited for it
“What Cynthia why? Oh my sweet Chris why? What did you do?” Mother queries
Hey mother c’mon. Really?
“Mother! No eerm-” I began
“What happened child? Tonight night he looked down. Isn’t it something you both can work out?”
I shake my head. “We Erm have been having issues and we have been apart for a while, we Erm.. I just told him to come here because, Erm. . Mother, you were so excited about me being in a relationship and I really wanted to make it work but we couldn’t” I lied
“But you both looked so great together!! She sobbed
“I met someone else?” I closed my eyes again waiting for the next shriek
“Cynthia A. Morgan.!!
“Mother you can’t help who you love right. I cared about Chris but it didn’t work out and I know you both liked him, but the heart wants who it wants mother and I need you to understand and accept my decision” I pleaded
“Papa, you would love Jayden. I invited him over tomorrow and you would love him. He is amazing I promise. ”
“And he has gone back to Canada?
“I mean Jayden is great and a law-
“He left without a goodbye?
“And I was looking forward to you both settling down soon”
My parents cut me off.
“He leaves for Canada tomorrow and he says to thank you both and that you were amazing host and that he is sorry. But mother, papa, Jayden is warm and kind hearted. So wonderful. Please, please support me. I am happy with Jayden. .
“But you just met this Jayden, Cynthia?” her mother gets up
No, I have known him all my life
“In school mother and then again of recent but it doesn’t matter. He feels same for me. . Papa!”
“Whatever makes you happy Cynthia? Whatever that makes you happy bunny… as long as you are happy. That’s okay for us. Right Bridget? He turns to his wife
She likes Chris. But her daughter’s happiness was important.
“Yes I am.”
“We are happy for you then. Just feeling bad, but you are happy and that’s all that matters” papa kisses my forehead, “we would meet your Jayden tomorrow”
I squealed getting up to hug both of them. Later that night as I laid in bed willing time to go fast, so I can get to introduce my boyfriend, my man, my Jayden to my parents…
I fell asleep,
But in my dream. .
He called me Cyn and tucked my hair behind ear
“Merry Christmas mother, papa!!” I kiss their cheeks
“Same to you baby” a kiss each from them, they stood close to the tree, picking up gifts
“We didn’t get to give Chris his gifts” mother sounded sad, “yet he dropped gifts for everyone”
For the second time in two days, my throat closed up and I swallowed again.
Mother opened her box to reveal a shawl, a beautiful wrap shawl she had gushed about when we all had gone out with Chris to see a movie, he got her that same one. Papa revealed his box to see a baseball cab signed by one of his top best players in the rugby team. Christopher knew someone in the team and must have called in a huge favour to get it signed for him.
“Open your box Cynthia” they urged, I was reluctant
“Merry Christmas everyone!!” Vera squeals letting herself in and giving everyone a hug
“Here is a gift for you too Vera from Chris ” mother says
Vera opens hers to reveal one of the recent books of John Grisham, she had told him how she wanted it but couldn’t get his latest edition on eBook and he got it for her, “Oh my, this isn’t even out yet on eBook or a hundred paperbacks. How did he get this?” She was excited
“With love from Chris” he signed
I was quiet as everyone turn to me
“Open it Cynthia, you don’t want to see what he got you?”
I shake my head, I didn’t want to see it. I didn’t get him anything and he is leaving if not left already and I didn’t want to feel horrible.. “No!! I shake my head
Vera grabs it and opens it to reveal a beautiful necklace and a bracelet, with my name engraved on it and a letter laid by the side
“Oh wow these are lovely” mother and Vera gush holding it up, indeed it was, it was beautiful
“He has a good eye for rare diamonds” papa says whistling
“Won’t you read what it says?” Vera indicates the letter
She hoped to God Chris man’s up and pours his heart to her, his flight was by 6pm today, and even if he didn’t she was going to make sure she tells her and if she listens to her she might be able to stop him before he boards the plane
“To the girl who left sparkles while she walked, whose heart is soft and whose smile is radiant clearly without doubt. To the girl who is beautiful inside and out, whose validation isn’t tied to anyone but herself, whose essence is from within and that’s the beauty only I have seen. To the girl who stole my heart, I wish you all the love you ever have and more. To the girl who is amazing and her smile is something that always flutters my heart. To the girl I love, from that braces to the one being transformed, you would always be Cyn, beautiful, amazing, loving little girl I met that first day you walked in feeling lost to this wonderful woman you have grown into and become, and that’s the only validation you need to be awesome. Merry Christmas Cyn, I love you!!”
I didn’t realise when a tear streaked down my eyes,
Tell me you see how much he loves Cynthia? ”
Why did my I feel like I suddenly can’t breathe? Why did my legs go weak.. Why did I feel as though, as though?
Jayden was coming. My Jayden. I cleaned my eyes…
“Cynthia?” she looks at me.
“Mother, father, Jayden would be here in another couple of hours, we should get ready ”
I turn heading into my room, heading for a shower
Vera sighs looking at my parents..
“She doesn’t realise that Christopher really loves her, she doesn’t”
“No wonder he looked heartbroken last night” Jacob says, mother looks at the picture she just had framed of when she captured both of them in a kiss that day..
“This moment looked perfect”
Jayden sat across from my parents, talking and laughing. I could see how they tried to smile and indulge him in a conversation but there was some gloomy atmosphere. I shook it off, Vera gives me a smile. It was 3pm
“So you are a lawyer?” Papa askes him. ,
“Yes sir. I am. I hear you love the sports and that you were a professor? ”
“Yes, majored in the linguistics and humanitarian studies. Retired a year ago to tend to my old age” papa smiles
“So Mrs Bridget, your cooking is so amazing. My mother would love to meet you, Cynthia is such an amazing girl and I believe she got her good looks from you.”
“How long have you both known you loved each other?” she stares him straight in the eyes
“Since for ever” I smile, holding his hands
“Since I ran into her in that shop over a couple of weeks ago and I realised that letting her go would be the worst thing I could ever do” he brushes my knuckles with a kiss.
Vera kept checking the time, it was past three already… Chris was going to leave soon
“How about when she was all much younger, with the braces and those scars, you didn’t care for her that much” she blurted out she couldn’t help it
‘I- I admit I was a recluse and didn’t know better but I was just a kid and I realise how wrong I was and I have made peace with my demons and she has forgiven me, Cynthia knows am crazy about her and that thing of the past shouldn’t shape out the future”
*You were beautiful, from the first day I saw you with those braces and scars. Who ever saw you and ever thought you were not beautiful never really looked at your heart, because that’s where your beauty truly lies*
I heard him say. I blink.
“And what if she didn’t come back looking the way she did now, but remained the way she was… ugly duckling would you have looked at her and cared for her as you do now?”
I wince. Vera, stop, I look at her. “Don’t mind her baby, she is just silly, It doesn’t matter”
“Look, Vera I know you don’t really think my feelings for Cynthia are genuine but they are. I am in love with her now and that’s all that matters”
“Would you have loved her still if she looked the way she did?” now mother was the one who asked
“Erm… Well. I guess so” he stammered briefly
“That’s a enough for me” I tell them, squeezing his hands..
“You are the most important person to me at the moment Cynthia and I am glad you came back.”
*Don’t run away from the mirror, don’t hide from yourself. Don’t think the world is always against you but even when they are, I would be standing right here beside you, holding your hand and braving the storms with you. Cyn, you would always have me, I don’t care if they called you ugly. .because to me you weren’t.”*
His voice says to me again.
“What if, I- what if I did come back ugly like I was” I say “would I still be the most important person to you?”
He blinks, “You wouldn’t have!”
“Cynthia, baby to show you how much you mean to me…” he gets up and places his hands in his pocket, bringing out a box, and goes on his knees
“Why wait for the perfect time and never find it, when you already have the perfect person right here in front of you. I love you Cynthia, I know I may be a handful but I don’t want to let you go away or let this moment pass me by. Will you marry me?’ he reaches for my hand as he shows me the box, opening it. Mother and Vera gasps, papa stares in shock
Dreams do come true. I have only loved him while I grew up, following him around school, wanting all that he was, hoping that one day, one day Jayden would be mine.
I had fought hard to be perfect for him, worked on myself just so I could fit in and I did. All his friends wanted to be my friend, even Tom. Everyone from school called us out to hang, I finally belonged, as part of them. They apologised to me for being silly in school, the taunts and name calling. I was happy, Finally, God did value people like me to make sure I finally get the love and acceptance I always wanted.
Years later, Jayden my sweet, sweet, Jayden, My prince, is here on his knees and giving me the most wonderful present I could ever want. What I always wanted, what I wished my Christmas would be like and here right in front of me…my dreams came through .
“Cynthia, would you make me the happiest man today and say yes to me. I love you, say yes? ”
“Yes Jayden, I have always loved you, always ” I told him, I saw the smile break out in his face, as he reached for my hands I pull away
“But that was before I realised that that wasn’t love that was a childhood crush that lingered for far too long. Love is kind, love isn’t selfish nor boastful. Love accepts all things, your flaws and your mistake and know your imperfections and still love the view”
*you were never imperfect Cyn, don’t ever let anyone make you feel less than you are.*
“Love is seeing me as I am and loving me, caring about me and giving up everything for me”
“What are you saying Cynthia?”
“While I was young, all I thought about was you and you never really cared. You didn’t want me near you and I am not blaming you. I didn’t want to be near me if I could, I mean I wasn’t among the fine species of people so I get and I am not angry about that because really it’s not your fault or any of your faults. But I was just a kid and so were you”
“Yes Cynthia, we were. Say yes his eyes pleaded”
“But, when I left, leaving all these behind, going away to Canada, hoping I become as invincible as the air I breath, there was someone who smiled when I smiled, who didn’t hide when I came into a class and who didn’t mind holding my hand in the crowd when people looked at me funny. There was someone who cared enough to stick around in my absence of self, who didn’t care about my looks and who remained my friend. Someone who left all that he was doing and came down here to pretend in a lie. Isn’t that love Jayden?”
‘Cynthia, baby I don’t get what you are saying”
“I am saying that, I never knew what love is until today the person I thought I just cared about is about to leave and all I feel empty and like a part of me is leaving too, and reading his letter today I realise that, love is much more than what you think you feel; it’s an action not just words and He has shown me so much love from the moment we met till today and… that’s the kind of love I have always wanted not one out of convenience and my looks.. One who saw my imperfections and flaws, scars and loved me still. Just like God, loving us in our worst… Isn’t that what love is, what love means?”
“I mean even when I made him lie he did just because he wanted me to be happy and I was stupid so stupid I didn’t see it, he was standing here in front of me and I was chasing ghost. . ”
“What lie is that?” my parents ask
“Oh my God..” I touch my lips, closing my eyes remembering his lips to mine, my heart warming and my knees going weak again
“I have been so blinded I didn’t let my heart accept what I knew, what I saw and what I didn’t want to feel…
“Baby, marry me?” he says, pleading
“I am sorry.. I am sorry but I can’t. Today I realise how much we lose Diamond just because we are chasing rare stones, just like you Jayden. Maybe, truly you won’t realise how much you love Eva until when she leaves; it bolt you back to your senses. She may have her flaws as do you but maybe your love and her love is meant to be forever. She loves you and if only you allow yourself to love would you realise that you love her too, in all her flaws” he gets up
“Cynthia, but you love me? I -love you I love us together”
“No Jayden, I loved the idea of you and you loved the idea if me now, and I realise that’s some old dream. I have a new one now and I was stupid not to have realised it earlier. You are amazing Jayden and I know Eva would be such a lucky girl to have you. Go back to her and apologise. .”
“Where are you going to?” he asked as I pick my bag
“Am going to get my man!!” I say
“And we are coming with!” Vera, mother and papa says
I hug him, leaving a kiss on his cheeks, he leaves, sullen looks and sad. I hope he goes to see Eva.
“Your plane is about to leave Sir” The lady in uniform told him.
He had been sitting there, waiting, just waiting for anything to happen. It was 5: 30 he picks his bags and heads to the check in line,
“If you don’t go in now you would have to wait for the next flight which isn’t till tomorrow sir.” she told him
He nods giving her a sad smile,
No one was coming. He didn’t know why he was waiting, he leaves, heading into the area for check in, giving them his bags
“It’s not so nice to leave without a proper goodbye Christopher” mother says he turns to find me smiling at him, mama and papa stood behind me, Vera waves from the side
“Sir, you need to board now!” she tells him
“Am sorry, I don’t do well with goodbyes” Christopher comes back and stands in front of her, she hugs him…
Papa hugs him too “You don’t have to say goodbye you know that son.”
“Besides I just made a new friend, how dare you go away just like that” She joins in the hug. I stood there, I didn’t know what to say
“Give me a minute please” he says over his shoulder
“Hi trouble monster, come to say goodbye?” he says, looking around to see if Jayden was somewhere waiting for me… I shake my head his eyes were sad, I beat myself mentally for not realising sooner. Why he always stared at me the way he did, say those nice things to me always and how much he meant to me.
“Don’t go!” I managed, blinking back tears
“Why not?” he says, he was in front of me now
He ignored her.
For once Cynthia, for once Cynthia, give me a reason to stay. He pleased looking into her eyes
“Because? Because” the words flew out of my mouth
‘Yes?” He inquired, he was close enough now
“Oh stop bugging him can’t you see they need a moment” papa snaps at the lady who stares at him in shock
“Cyn?” I just stare at him, not saying anything, he smiles weakly and places a kiss to my head, and turns walking away
“Cynthia Abigail Morgan!!” I heard mother’s voice
“Oh Cynthia!!” Vera joins in
“Honey” papa sounded disappointed
He gives them his documents and was leaving. .
Christopher was leaving and…
“I love you!!!’ I felt my heart explode in my chest as I let the words out .
“I love you Christopher… I am sorry I never realised it until today. I love you and I am sorry for making you do crazy and questioning things for me. I love you the way you love me. I love the way you smell my hair and tug it behind my ears, I love as you laugh at my jumping like a little frog when I am excited, I love the way you tease me and tickle my sides, or when we share a coffee and muffins every morning before you go to work. I love it when you let me sleep off on your chest as you study for exams or when you are knee bent in work while I watch stupid soap operas and gush all day about stupid silly things. I love the way your eyes sparkle to your eyes and your boyish laughter when you throw your head back happy. I love how you fight me over a pillow and tell me how you are going to make my parents adopt you. I love you Christopher –
I didn’t realise he had closed the distance between us, taking my face in his hands
“shut up Cyn, you talk too much” he says right before he captures my lips in the most sensual kiss that made my lips buckle, I wrap my hands around his neck and gave my all to him, tears streaming down my face…
I remember thinking that kissing Jayden would be the most amazing thing in the world…
Who knew that falling in love and kissing the person you love and who loves you right back would-be top of the most amazing thing in the world, I felt like I was in heaven and every other thing I thought before was amazing was just child’s play..
I knew I wanted someone else for Christmas; but what did I know. I was a kid. of course I didn’t know what love was or meant to be
This right here was my perfect love story… This right here was what I wanted for Christmas. .
A love that left me weak to my bones and made me realise why nothing ever worked out in the first place.
“I love you too Cyn, my little trouble maker” he whispers into my mouth as he came up briefly for air”
Mother and papa were smiling at us and Vera was just “awwing” all over the place.
“Look up” she says and right there we were we stood, was a mistletoe dangling over our heads
We laugh, kissing me again. I ways wanted to kiss the person I love under one and this, this was just what I needed.
“All I wanted for Christmas, I never realises was-?”
“Was what?” he says, tracing the necklace round my neck as he kiss my wrist were I wore the bracket he gave me… he was smiling. He was happy. .
‘All I wanted for Christmas. ..Was You!! Was you Christopher? You are all I wanted and I am glad I got you!!” I smile into his eyes…
I don’t remember how long we stood there kissing but I knew this was the love story I never envisioned but this was my perfect love story…
Did he leave?
Hell nah!! Papa was too happy to carry his bags and mother was too excited to stop taking pictures and Vera? My sweet amazing friend Vera gushed about
“I knew you guys were made for each other!”
Christopher? I have never seen a man who looked that way at any woman before. Since my father and I always wanted a love like theirs, Raw, undiluted, pure… genuine. That love and Today, Christmas Day… I got my most amazing gift.
“I got you!” I kiss him…
“My forever and a day more just began” he says,
“I have one more gift to give you!”
“What is it?” We ask, I peer into his face…
“I had hoped one day in give it to her so I carried it with me, hoping…”
“What is it?” I ask him, and when he went on his knees… dipping his hands into his pocket, bringing out a red box
Vera began screaming, mother claps excited and papa, papa nods…
You know what, I didn’t bother to wait for him to finish.
“Hell yeah baby!!!” I say throwing myself at him…
I am glad mother caught that in her camera. ..
For this was the most special day of my life…
3 years and counting, choosing Christopher is something I would do again and again and again.
Jayden? Well let’s just say, He ended up with Eva.
See how things work out?
Life is a mystery but I was glad I found love in mine.
* Get up, leaving the stage, going to the man of my dreams and my little girl who waited at the end of the room * I had a content smile on my way…
I was happy…
Love is a strange thing you know, and we never know what we have until we are about to lose it. Sometimes we find love in the most unlikely places, whoever says best friends don’t make the most perfect love stories?
Love is love and sometimes you don’t need jars of broken hearts to finally find your true love. You just need to Let love take you to the high heavens and sweep you off your feet, you never know you might just be in love even before you reach back down..
Let love win…